I groaned when I heard Brian's voice keeping my head buried in my pillow. The last thing on earth I wanted to do right now is talk to anyone especially Brian, but it is my birthday after all so of course the torture couldn't end just yet. As I felt his hand on my back I spit a sarcastic comment at him as I inched my body away from his touch. I didn't know exactly what his motive was but I wasn't interested. I had already apologized a million times just to get shunned and treated like dirt by them. No matter how much deep down I still cared for them they had already taken everything way too far.

His touch returned this time placing his hand on my shoulder.
" Frankie" he sighed pausing for a moment in thought. But as I layed there I felt like a ticking time bomb ready to explode. The past two months I've been a miserable wreck and I'm sure he's been out having a blast and fucking around but I was the bad guy?? And now he wants to just stroll in my room uninvited?? As the thoughts swirled in my head I gritted my teeth while warm tears of hurt and anger poured down my cheeks.

" Frankie, I...." Was all he got out before I cut him off yanking away from his touch to stand right infront of him inches away from his face.

" no Brian I think you've already said enough! " I spit thru my teeth. My breathing becoming erratic as the adrenaline fueled my rage. He closed his mouth and dropped his gaze to the floor.

" let's get something straight right fucking now! I take full responsibility for my actions but the night you two came over I didn't invite either one of you! And I was fucking drunk and thanks to zacky fucking high so you two need to get off your fucking pedistals and realize its not all on me!" I growled trying to catch my breath. He once again tried to get a word in but I wasn't about to let that happen this was my time to talk and I've waited way too long already. I wasn't going to let him rob me of it. With the glare I gave him he quickly got the hint and waited for me to continue my rant.

" you think you were hurt Brian?? Well how do you think I felt???!!!!! I'm a fucking human being too! I have feelings! But ill tell you what now you can see what it's like, now you can watch me walk out!" I hissed as I stomped out of my room leaving him still sitting on my bed as I slammed the door making my way downstairs. Not even caring that I probably looked like a crazy person with mascara stains all down my face I walked out the front door and kept going till I got to the beach.
once there I pulled my heels off and started my trek through the sand until I found an inviting spot to sit. I just gazed out into the ocean letting the cool breeze blow through my hair. I took in a deep breath letting it out slowly releasing all my tension. I pulled my knees to my chest laying my head down on them as my eyelids slid shut.

" Your horrible at running away, I found you the first place I looked" Matt chuckled as he sat beside me in the sand.

" Well atleast I tried" I smiled. Mentally thanking god it was Matt and not Brian.

" I brought you a piece of your cake, I even baked it myself" he beamed proudly holding a plate with aluminum foil out to me. I couldn't help as the tears once again started streaming down my face as I rested my forehead on my knees.

" don't cry it doesn't taste that bad, I mean its not the best but its ok" he said placing the plate beside him to rub my back. A chuckle escaped my lips as I raised my head to look at him.

" No Matt I'm not crying because of that, I'm crying because you and Val are so good to me but its like ever since I've gotten here it's been nothing but drama and I feel horrible. It's not fair to you guys" I said my eyes burning into his with pure sincerity.

" and it's fair to you?" He questioned me as I looked down silently as I shrugged my shoulders. He cupped my chin in his hand bringing my gaze back to him.

" Val and I love having you around, and I know since Michelle left she and Val haven't been as close as they use to and she sees you as one of her best friends. And as far as all the shit with Brian and zacky their just being tools, don't let it bother you. No matter what they think or say the rest of us know your a good person and love you." I just stared at him as I felt my heart swell. I really loved Val and Matt they were the only family I had now and I felt so blessed that they felt the same way.

" Now come on let's to home, we can play call of duty!" He squealed wiggling his eyebrows as he nudged me with his elbow. I giggled loudly at how excited he was, he was like a huge tattooed kid.

" come on you can kill stuff it'll be fun" he insisted as I finally gave in as he stood up shaking the sand out of his shorts. He reached his arm down to help me up.

" But first we gotta go bail Brian out of jail" he rattled off quickly almost too fast to understand as he yanked me up keeping my hand in his making sure I didn't run off as we walked to his car. Oh god, what now.........